So dank and dour, so dark and sour,
No wonder I avoid you.
You sulk and gripe
You moan and bitch (OK that doesn't rhyme)
No one wants to be around you.

You're never happy with me or what I do
you point out the wrong things I do
Never happy with crap you only snap
at me and the kids
No nice words, you only see
the things going wrong, how can it be?
The perfect is not there, what a scare
Things not in place
Pox on the human race!

A gentle spirit......

Nice-ness
One thing I'm beginning to learn to admire.....niceness, gentleness. A gentle soul....a nice person, accepting, non-judgemental, non-critical. I'm so sick of cricitalness, wretched perfectionism. Harshness. Not sure how much longer I can live with it in my life.
I long for just being with a nice person, one who is just.....well...nice. A gentle spirit without harsh judgement of all the little critical little flaws that are present in life, who can put up with the daily upsets and wrinkles of life without becoming unglued at the seams and taking it out on everyone around.
Romance...that would be nice too. Last time I've received flowers, or any type of romance...? I really can't remember. Sad. I often am envious of the girls at work who recieve flowers from their guy on their birthdays, even more the once who get flowers "just because"...no special occasion but just to say "You are special".
I tire of the atmosphere of criticism. Tired of it. So tired. How much more can I take? Am I perfect? No, I'm basically an unorganized kinda slob. But a happy slob, too busy to be perfect, too involved in all the things I want to accomplish in life to be organized. I enjoy life. I hate criticism. Especially when it is not balanced out by a positive comment, nor softened by some romance.
I said recently..... "A critical spirit is to the soul like a rotten carcass is to the nose"

Sadness and John Denver

I fed tonight, then sat and drank some wine and played John Denver. I rigged my barn radio/CD/tape player with the speakers in the aisle so I could hear the music outside the tack room....
So, I sat and listened to John Denver, and watched the horses eat dinner, and sipped on a glass of wine. Felt sad that I never met John Denver....I feel we were kindred spirits....loners, yet have to do well in the world of people. I do enjoy people (sometimes) but also really crave solitude or just time with my animals.
I hope John is in Heaven...that I will meet him someday.....I love his music, it speaks my heart in so many ways.

Selling Demi and Sangria

A bit sad today....tomorrow, Michelle and her friend Jennifer will be coming to get Sangria and Demi, 2 of my fillies born last year. I spent time with them today, bathing and getting them ready to go. I cried some, especially with Demi. She is such a lovey filly, small, dainty, but perfectly made. Sangria will be larger, and really is elegant with large doe-eyes. I love breeding, and playing with the foals, but selling is so hard. I'm going to miss these two. I'm actually trading Demi for a broke mare, so only really selling one....but still, the same, they are leaving for their new home tomorrow. I will take pics before they leave. Small consolations....they will go togeather and live togeather, and are only 45 minutes away, so I can go see them and see how nicely they grow up :)


On a happier note...I will be getting in a new cremello 3 yr old filly soon....More about that when she gets here! She is a grand-daughter of Montana Harvest, a stallion whom I admire. Again, pics when she gets here!

It is supposed to be cold tonight, in the 20's. Brrrrrr!

Supper.....white chicken chili. Scott found out his cholesterol level is high, about 260, so we will be eatin' mo chicken!

Had an OK ride on Violet today. I tried on a Circle Y saddle with a cushy seat, on consignment at Marys tack. They want $450. Too much but it was comfy. Violet is OK until we start trotting. Then she pins her ears bad. We did lots of arena work, then down the driveway and to the far open pasture, where I have trails mowed in the tall grass. She is better out in the open but still pinned some, and even threw a little buck on the way back. Little pisser! I fussed, circled and kicked for several circles, then took her back to the open pasture away from home, made her walk and trot some out there again. She was much better! Don't like the bucking though.
I know it sounds like something is hurting her. But she does it in any saddle. Feet are OK. I do think she was better in the hunt saddle though.... Don't know, need to figure this one out....

Violet over caveletti

Today I lunged Violet in side reins, after introducing them, then rode her for a little while in the arena. She had a much better attitude today, less pinning of ears. We trotted ground poles, and went over caveletti and a cross rail a few times. She was much better, more relaxed than last ride. She is wanting to jig some when first mounted. Maybe a phase she is going through....we will see.
I cleaned a harness today, trying to get it ready to sell. Don't need it...
Supposed to rain tonight and tomorrow :(
Supper...make your own mini pizza....

Is Anybody there???

Today I decided to give Sangria her first bath. Sangria is my 1 yr old chestnut filly by Rock (Carringtons Choctaw) and out of Ruby (Arapaho Penny), a mare I leased. It was a warm day, good for bathing, so I went ahead to prepare for the battle. I hate giving first baths.....

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I began spraying her legs gently with a small stream from the hose. Nothing. No dancing or fidgiting. I moved up and down her legs....still nothing. Ok, the chest, shoulder, neck....barrel, hips. No reaction. She just stood there watching the other horses in the pasture.

I knocked on her forehead and asked....Helloooooo.....Is anybody home???

I shampooed her coat, mane and tail, then rinsed her off. A couple of time, she moved her hips over, tried to eat grass, and did scrunch her butt when the water hit her tail. But overall, she was amazingly calm and took it better than some horses who are used to being bathed. I'm really impressed by her disposition!

Heres a few pics after she dried off. I am so impressed with her calmness today. Such a wonderful, calm disposition. She is for sale, but I may rethink that.

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Later today, I rode Violet again. Worked on circles in the arena and then went for a ride out in the pasture and a quick jaunt on the wooded trail. She was good as gold out in the pasture and in the woods. Pinned her ears some in the arena, not sure why.