A gentle spirit......

Nice-ness
One thing I'm beginning to learn to admire.....niceness, gentleness. A gentle soul....a nice person, accepting, non-judgemental, non-critical. I'm so sick of cricitalness, wretched perfectionism. Harshness. Not sure how much longer I can live with it in my life.
I long for just being with a nice person, one who is just.....well...nice. A gentle spirit without harsh judgement of all the little critical little flaws that are present in life, who can put up with the daily upsets and wrinkles of life without becoming unglued at the seams and taking it out on everyone around.
Romance...that would be nice too. Last time I've received flowers, or any type of romance...? I really can't remember. Sad. I often am envious of the girls at work who recieve flowers from their guy on their birthdays, even more the once who get flowers "just because"...no special occasion but just to say "You are special".
I tire of the atmosphere of criticism. Tired of it. So tired. How much more can I take? Am I perfect? No, I'm basically an unorganized kinda slob. But a happy slob, too busy to be perfect, too involved in all the things I want to accomplish in life to be organized. I enjoy life. I hate criticism. Especially when it is not balanced out by a positive comment, nor softened by some romance.
I said recently..... "A critical spirit is to the soul like a rotten carcass is to the nose"

Sadness and John Denver

I fed tonight, then sat and drank some wine and played John Denver. I rigged my barn radio/CD/tape player with the speakers in the aisle so I could hear the music outside the tack room....
So, I sat and listened to John Denver, and watched the horses eat dinner, and sipped on a glass of wine. Felt sad that I never met John Denver....I feel we were kindred spirits....loners, yet have to do well in the world of people. I do enjoy people (sometimes) but also really crave solitude or just time with my animals.
I hope John is in Heaven...that I will meet him someday.....I love his music, it speaks my heart in so many ways.